Damn the anonymous singers' forum.... it has caused me more grief while waiting for audition results. I avoid it because of past hurts. Any singer, anywhere in the world, can get on and post a query or comment, probably not realizing the torment it causes me in my little corner. I was still allowing myself to feel the glow of how well the Houston audition seemed to go - and a bit relaxed, given that HGO still had two more audition cities to get through before the holiday, and we were told they won't finish notifying everyone about the semi-finals until December 18.
But there is always some anxiety - and in a moment of weakness, I checked the "audition" section of the forum, and an anonymous poster had announced HGO had started sending out The Emails - the day before Thanksgiving.
I suppose there's a chance that a delayed response doesn't necessarily mean I'm out. Look at OSB - they contacted me the day after the notification deadline. Still, I want validation that my audition truly was as good as it felt. I want them to have wanted me so much that there was no deliberation, no question - and in that case, an immediate response. The delay just feels bad.
In the meantime, I fly to NY for trip #1 this weekend, for an audition that makes sense on many levels....but I'm a little distracted this week; the Holiday Frenzy is starting to make itself felt. D. is away in Mississippi for 10 days, and I feel a little stranded.
Stranded or not, B. is in town today, so I need to gather myself pretty efficiently for that coaching this morning. There is no room for distraction with him, he insists on 100%, A-lane, my very best, all the time. There is love in his delivery, but it is thickly disguised. Truth be told, there's probably nothing I need more, in preparation for the NY barrage.
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